Category Archives: Self-Love
This is a guided meditation designed to walk you through the release of an old, stuck memory of emotional pain. It takes about fifteen minutes and should be done in a quiet space in which you have time alone to experience and then process.
Emotional points of pain are hooked traumas in the body. When you tense upon feeling pain, it’s just like a fish closing its mouth around a hook. The way to reverse it out is to trust enough to relax, to feel it again as it backs its way out, and to stay relaxed. You’ll know it’s gone when there’s this sudden rushing of love and relief…and joy…that comes and fills its place. And that when you tap that painful point again in your mind, it’s no longer painful – it’s just a residual echo.
Just relax and listen to the sound of my voice. Breathe deeply. Settle in. Understand that you’re going to feel a whole lot better when this thorn is taken out of your side.
Also understand that this is a gift you give yourself. I’m not doing anything…only you have the power and ability to reach into your soul and remove this hook. I am your guide, but it’s the trust that must be placed in yourself, knowing that you can do this, that is important here. That you have found this audio, that you are in alignment with this information, stands as proof that this is true.
So take another deep breath, and relax into this. Now, you’ve probably come to this with a sense of pain, of somethin’ – something, hopefully small to begin with. It can be large as well…sometimes big things are the easiest, especially if you’re ready to let them go. That’s a key component – you’re ready and willing.
Pain disempowers. This is you taking your power back. You choosing to see from a perspective that gives you your power back. Just somethin’ you forgot…a twist in perception that led to a forgetting, no big deal. And yet it can seem as big as the world when it’s in your eyes, blocking other views.
So breathe now and feel into that pain. Don’t lose yourself in it, just poke at it – almost as if it’s a sore tooth in your mouth. There’s a place in your body that it’s being held…many of these are held in the heart, in the guts, in the throat. Send your mind to this place. Notice that it’s tense.
And every time you poke that painful spot, that memory, it tenses again. Uncomfortable. Hurts! Possibly even unbearable. But here’s the thing: Bear it. You are strong enough now. Breathe, and stay with it – don’t let your mind skitter off, to reasons and excuses and blames. To explanations, to stories – just stay with the pain, it’s been waiting for you for a while.
Breathe. There you go :) Bear witness. Relax. Let it carry you. It just wants to finish the echo of a scream that it gave when the event first happened. It’s sound was muted so that you may carry on in your life at that time… Now it’s time to un-mute it.
Every time it finishes its arc of a tensing and a wave of feeling, relax, take a breather, then poke it again – gently. No need to go over the top – you’re ready to let this go now. Just a gentle tap, and feel it. You know where it is in your body now, you figured that out.
Let it feel, let it roll through you. Energy doesn’t want to stay in one place in the body, it wants to move, just like the circulatory system. You had a mini storm, frozen in ice – it’s melting now. With your breath, it warms, it loosens. It relaxes. Be with it. Allow it to finish.
Another deep breath… The energy in the pain rises and falls, ebbs and flows. You may need to do this process or listen to this audio more than once – and it’s okay. But very likely, you’re so ready to let this go, that you’ll just open your hands – and with your breath and an open palm, you’ll let it go. You’ll let it rise, reach a crescendo of discomfort, and not clench down on it – don’t close your hand. Just breathe.
You may notice those ripples of energy now, feel like little electrical sparks. You may feel a cold sweatiness in your hand. That is the measure of just how much energy was stored there. Your life force that could not move in that area. That your life could not flow any longer in that section. You could not create things around it, and that idea. Too painful. It’s like a big roadblock was put in your way, that you were clinging to for dear life.
Because you were pushing against it. This is what you needed to do – and it’s okay, that’s how it works. And now you can stand up, and breathe, and say, “Oh…that’s in the past. It’s over. I’m alive. I’m breathing. This roadblock’s not even there anymore… I just needed to open my eyes and look and see for myself, and it was painful. But it is Done. It is Done. It is Done.”
So take a deep breath, and flush that energy through your body. The breath and prana, of life, of chi that comes in on the breath. Feel it rush through that area on the in breath, and flush out on the out breath. Cleaning. Setting rights. Revealing. All this power that you now have at your call. The ability to create. The ability to love. The ability to trust.
One more deep breath… and just let yourself know that this will come in echos, and you know what to do with it. Let that joy, let that love, that open feeling fill you. You remember not to tense around it now. You know why and how it works. Your body knows why and how. Move with it. Live through it – you already have.
And when you’re ready, give yourself a hug inside. :) Give yourself a hug outside! Just wrap your arms around yourself and squeeze tight, and smile. A part of you has just come back…it’s time to welcome it home.
Self-acknowledgment is extremely important. In the end, you are the one with the final say as to your worth, your value, your competence and any other number of attributes.
As you believe, so can it be…and often, so it is. It takes you and your standing behind yourself to meet the final equation required for creation to match your vision.
Without your final say-so as a witness and holder of space through self-acknowledgment and ultimately self-validation, no vision can be held long enough to become actualized.
You are the final ingredient in the alchemy inherent in any creative act and/or transformation.
This self endorsement that results in creation is something that is built over time, in the little things that seemingly don’t matter much. Like a single wave against a rock…they matter intensely in their multitude.
You can rally at major turning points…but for sustained creations with lasting power, the well upon which they draw upon must be run deep and wide with time invested in it before it is needed.
Drawing a complete blank for this week’s sparks!
So what I’m going to do is create a space in which you can share :)
This week’s sparks and Sparklies will be from someone else…!
A Spark is 140 characters long or so – like a twitter tweet! Short and sweet.
Share your inner light!
I’ll pick out a picture for you, or you can pick your own at http://www.morguefile.com/archive
Without a thought or a word,
she let go. She let go of the fear.
She let go of the judgments. She
let go of the confluence of
opinions swarming around her
head. She let go of the committee
of indecision within her. She let
go of all the ‘right’ reasons.
Wholly and completely, without
hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice.
She didn’t read a book on how to
let go. She didn’t search the
scriptures. She just let go. She let
go of all the memories that held
her back. She let go of all the
anxiety that kept her from moving
forward. She let go of the
planning and all of the
calculations about how to
do it just right.
She didn’t promise to let go. She
didn’t journal about it. She didn’t
write the projected date in her
Day-Timer. She made no public
announcement and put no ad in
the paper. She didn’t check the
weather report or read her daily
horoscope. She just let go.
She didn’t analyze whether she
should let go. She didn’t call her
friends to discuss the matter. She
didn’t do a five-step Spiritual
Mind Treatment. She didn’t call
the prayer line. She didn’t utter
one word. She just let go.
No one was around when it
happened. There was no
applause or congratulations. No
one thanked her or praised her.
No one noticed a thing. Like a
leaf falling from a tree, she just
There was no effort. There
was no struggle. It wasn’t good
and it wasn’t bad. It was what it
was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let
it all be. A small smile came over
her face. A light breeze blew
through her. And the sun and the
moon shone forevermore..”
~ Reverend Safire Rose
This is in answer to the call from Karen Chrappa who wrote to her 20 year old self with sage advice, and invited others to do the same :) original here
Hiya me! :) I’m 36, you’re 20, and I’m writing you because it sounded like a neat idea. Who knows? Maybe you’ll even receive this in a dream (which I’ll then remember having ;) )
The premise behind this is for me to tell you about stuff you didn’t know back then, that I wish you had… It’s kind of free form really, so I’ll just randomly throw stuff out there :)
First and foremost – you know a whole lot more than you think you do, and also not nearly as much. You have a lot of heart knowledge, but your worldly street smarts really sucks. You know how you thought maybe your parents didn’t have a clue about the world? Well, ends up you were right. They’re not mentors – they’re a mess!
So don’t blow all your scholarships in the hopes they’ll notice you went to college – turns out that didn’t work and we’re still paying it off all this time later.
Oh, and! It’s okay to be on your own…it’s a really good chance to get to know yourself. I remember how tempting it was to go off and find people to define me by – guys, friends, groups. In the end I more found out who I wasn’t.
Learn To Drive. Ends up your dad didn’t have your best interests in mind there, either… you are an amazing driver. There’s nothing to be afraid of, you won’t hurt anyone – trust yourself even when he wouldn’t. Especially when he wouldn’t.
Drinking? Drugs? Bad idea. You learned that one real quick, but unfortunately the really really really hard way. It wasn’t worth it…
Speaking of which – things being painful and difficult doesn’t mean they’re worth it. It just means they’re difficult. You can actually take the easy road without missing out on a thing.
It also ends up that sacrificing yourself for other people makes zero sense. It doesn’t help them one bit – you just take on their crap for a while. They’ll have to do it all over again later b/c you got in the way of their learning how not to do it! Oops…yeah, hard one to learn, but that one is very worth it :)
The biggest thing I have to share with you is that heart knowledge thing. The deep and high connection you have…and your desire to share it with everyone else. It’s precious. Cultivate it for yourself first, learn how it works and how to love yourself…not how to love everyone else no matter what. Ends up we had it backwards.
Once you cultivate that heart space, you’ll have all the guidance you need. Feels tense and sharp? Don’t go there! There’s another way around, one of connection – it may be uncomfortable, but it doesn’t have to be Heart Rending if you know what I mean. Listen closely to that.
Balance, stability and emotional resilience are going to be big assets as you move through life. Still are. Drama for drama’s sake has a flavor – you know what I’m talking about. That ‘on fire’ feeling? Avoid it…again, it’s not worth it. That’s you burning…just you.
Oh! And you know how your mom treated everything with aspirin, and then advil? It ends up that doing that for a really long time is bad, as is triple dosing. If it hurts, it means something is wrong. That something may be emotional, but it’s still a something and you gotta be there with it.
Last thing I can think of kinda goes back to what I said before about getting to know yourself by yourself. In the end there’s you. Your connection to everyone and everything begins and ends with you – a full circle. You’re the alpha and omega of it, and your depth is never ending.
That’s the exploration of life – really, what life is about for us this lifetime, in a way…knowing ourselves and how our world reflects us back to us. So get to know you, outside the realm of influence of your mother (especially) and father… and the people you feel you have to help or ‘save.’
Other people aren’t your job or your purpose. You are. In exploring that, your life, dedicated to serving the realization of humanity’s highest potential at this time as it always has been, can actually be made manifest. It must begin at the heart of you…so get to know yourself!
The reality bubble you’re spinning out around you is of you – what comes in and goes out. Fascinating stuff – you’ll really enjoy it :)
Oh, and there is a God – ‘It’ is infinite expansion and exploration of existence, of which you are a part.
As such, you are intensely loved, accepted and a perfect fit for all the wonderment (or woe) you choose to create with your life. :) Me, I’m pulling for the wonderment team these days. Woe is interesting, but it gets old.